I am so damn tired these few days.. Especially today.

Ever since TEP started, I realised I can't stay up so late anymore. I am so used to sleeping late and waking up late but I think I can't do that anymore. Grr..r it means no more chatting on msn and no more watching tv or vcds late in the night.. Haha..

Ok.. Sooo tired and I need to go down for dinner now. So just a short post today.

Don't really have the mood to blog recently. Sigh.. I probably will be still complaining about the same stuffs but forget that, it spoils my day.

A quick update on these past few days. Let's see.. on Thursday, went to the nearby clinic to do dressing. It's been ages since I went to the clinic. Dr Ang was so called "the childhood doctor." I remembered him as a nice and friendly person during my younger days. He left a good impression on me when I went to see him. He would talk to me and give me sweets. So when I went with my mum that day, I was quite happy that I would be going to him see again after about 5-6 years.

He still looked the same except for the fact that he has aged. But he wasn't that friendly doctor I used to know. Perhaps I am all grown up already and he was talking like adult to adult and not an adult to a kid. Haha.. Anyway, was kinda scared when he was peeling off the plaster. I didn't know what to expect. Well, as in what the wound would be like and the thought of the stiches being visable sounds so......... o.O

Yup, but it wasn't that bad when I saw it. Quite cool though, cause the stiches are blue in colour. Ok crap.. =X Hmm.. but Dr Ang was kinda rough when he was cleaning up the wound. It was pressing and rubbing hard but luckily my wound has healed and it wasn't that painful... If not, I will definitely scream.

Ok.. nothing much on Friday I guess.. and as for a few hours ago when it was still a Saturday, it was back to guitar lesson. Clarice came to my house first to practise guitar, then we went for lesson. Honestly didn't know what the heck I was playing today. =X Clarice and I went in blur because she had not attended lesson for 2 weeks and for me, 1 week. We just tried to fake playing.. Haha seriously, we better start practising or we will be losing out.

After lessons, went to meet the guys near Lucky Plaza. We had our dinner at Far east Long John Silvers then just talked abit. Later it was pool at somewhere in Dhoby Ghaut.

I just love the time spent with you guys. Ahhh Saturday is just gone like that. Sunday will be gone real soon too.. then it will be the Monday blues... and I will be waiting for Friday to come again.. =(

So much talk today and I realise I gotta really plan. Life's too short..

First day of TEP.. Err I gotta say it sucks? I was like looking forward to it because it was something different and what's more other polys do not offer it. But today, I was so totally bored because that wasn't much things to do.

At times, we were just stuffed with lots of information and details about what we needed to do and at times, we were just sitting around with not the slightest clue what to do. We were totally bored and hoping that time passes quickly.

And it's like the 8.30 to 6pm everyday and the.. ok won't say anymore because the more I say the more I will dread going to school tomorrow. Oh my, to think it is only the first day and I am complaining.

Ok snap out of it, but let me just think that things will get better when the real things starts. Like when the roadshows and events are carried out. Hopefully the 9 weeks at this stopover isn't a waste.

Ahhh.. I suddenly miss all those lectures and tutorials. I miss BM0406..

It's been a few days after my op and I am basically slacking at home. Can't move about too much as I suppose to keep my leg elevated.

Well, doing the usual stuffs like watching tv, going online chatting and surfing and playing some computer games. And fortunately, I got some vcds to watch. Yup, so that's how I am spending my time now.

Ok now for the main thing, I want to thank everyone who contacted me in any way and told me to take care, to be strong and blah blah blah. Even after my op, some relatives even called up to check whether I was alright and ask how I am doing.

Thanks.. these gestures mean a lot. I appreciate it and it definitely brights up my day.

I was wide awake. I laid on bed and tried to get back to sleep again. For minutes, I tried to get to the best position possible but I my eyes remained opened. In the darkness, I squinted to see the time on the air-con controller. It was 6.25am. It was early and it was the first time in months I woke up so early. I can never fathom why I get up automatically during 'special' times. It's not like I felt nervous, anxious or anything. No point trying to sleep again, I thought. I needed to get up anytime soon.

After I washed up and brushed my teeth, I packed necessary things into a paper bag. I went downstairs to wait for my parents and I was surprised to see my grandmother. It really felt good receiving a hug and kiss from her. She comforted me not to worry and it definitely felt good. =)

Soon, I was already in the car on the way to the hospital. My dad took a different route this time to avoid the morning jam. It felt like an extremely long journey and I realised the route it took was far longer than the usual....

Before I knew it I was in the ward at bed 18. I had to wait for a nurse to come to wheel me to the operation room. I knew it would take ages because there were sure to be delays. So meanwhile, I continued reading Dave's Pelzer's My Story to pass my time. As I was reading, it somehow made me stronger. I began to think of how fortunate I am to have such a good life. Although I may have problems, there are so many people out there suffering a so much worse fate than me. I should be thankful for all that I have. I may have to go through 3 operations but looking at the bright side, I am glad I still have my 2 legs. Whereas some people can't even walk.

I received a call shortly. "Hi Cher, how are you? Take care and good luck for your op!" It was my bro saying in a cheerfully funny tone. It was nice that he called too. I know he cares. My eyes then told me it was time to sleep. I couldn't stay up and wait anymore.. my soul then drfited away..........

I dreamt of funny little things. I couldn't remember anything except for one part that I dreamt that I was actually blogging. It felt so real. I couldn't remember exactly what I wrote for the start but I remember the second paragraph saying, "I am bored, sleepy and yet scared..." And then a voice woke me up to my senses.

A nurse came and wheeled me to the 'land of horror.' I have been there twice and again, my wheelchair was 'parked' at the usual spot. The last two operations were still fresh in my mind.

I just waited there. I hate waiting. Waiting for family, waiting for friends, waiting for exams, waiting for anything else is far better than waiting for 'death.' But I knew God, my family and friends are all with me. I wasn't scared or afraid. I was actually looking forward for everything to be over.

The time came when one of them wheeled me in to the-death-room. On the way, I saw many sofisticated equipments and machines along the corridor. Some I have never seen before my life as if they were imported it from aliens of another planet.

The-death-room came in full view. It was the place I dreaded going in. Everything in it made it look so freaky. Anyway, this time round, Dr James Hui was already inside together with his accomplices. "Ok Li Ling, quickly and let's get things started." I laid down as he asked a few more questions about my knee. At that time, I was freezing and felt my whole body shivering. I tried my best to withstand the cold. Then I felt pricks on my hand here and there. Funny stuffs put near my chest.. and then came that 'oxygen mask.' I felt drowsy as my eyes soon shut and I knew I was soon going into a deep sleep.......

"Ms Tan Li Ling... Li Ling........ Are you ok?"

I soon zapped back into reality and I tried hard to open my heavy eyelids. I replied with a dry voice and shut my eyes back again. I felt so sleepy and every now and then, nurses would call out to me or they would come to take my blood pressure.

I felt pain in my knee but I wasn't worried about it anymore. I was just happy to know, it's over...

Hmm will make a quick one before I go to bed. Gotta wake up early tomorrow for my op. Have to be there at 8am.

Nothing much actually. Came back from TEP orientation and went out with my grandparents to Chinatown for lunch. Just walked around there for a bit. Bought some wrappers because they were cheap. Yeap, that's about it.

Haha and I better drink as much water as I can now because after 12 midnight, I am not suppose to consume any more food and drinks till after the op. Ahh I hope for the best. Ok this is really really really the last one. Gotta get those dumb screws out. Zzzzz... Nevermind, I have been through 2 ops already so I will be strong. Don't worry guys.. =)

Take care people won't be online so soon! Pray for me yah?.. Haha..

Ok from the title, there only can be only 1 person. That's Darryn Didi. =/

Went out with him shopping today. Headed down to Orchard and ended up waiting for him.. Zzz he was late. We had our lunch first then didi bought 4 T shirts in Wisma.

Next stop was queensway! Haha asked Clarice how get there because at that time, she was the only person I know who knows how to go there?

I think we were there for quite long. From 5 plus to 8 plus? We almost went in to every single shop in the first 2 storeys. And wow.. Didi bought like so many stuffs. Wahaha.. he carried like so many plastic bags like some... Err.. =X

Well, he bought so many shirts! Then got 2 pairs of Nike shoes. He seriously spent a bomb. As for me, I got 3 shirts for $20, 1 berm for $20 a Nike sandals for $60 and Nike socks for $9.

Yeah and finally walked down to Ikea to have our dinner. Ordered Nasi Lemak and Swedish meatballs. Just love the food there.

Yup, and it's TEP orientation tomorrow. Grr.. gotta wake up early and I think I need to get used to waking up early again. Anyway, I already know I am under roadshows and events. In a way, quite lucky I guess. =)

This few days I have been like sleeping later than 3am? Haha yeah so feeling a little sleepy now.

Hmm dinner on Friday was not bad. I can't remember the name of the place but it is at Pan Pac. 37th floor, chinese restaurant. Was really bloated after that.. I should say everyone was really filled up after the last dish. Thus, no birthday cake for my grandmother this year.

Hmm.. then Sat. Guitar lessons as usual but just that Clarice isn't there this time. Anyway, I was 15 mins late! And when I went in, oh wow, just felt the tension. I just knew that the teacher wasn't happy with us again. Well seriously don't blame him because our class is so quiet and what's more, we keep stopping in the middle of the song we were playing as if we have to wait for his instructions. I still think of major problem is the changing of chords. I mean we can get it right but we change too slowly and thus we don't play songs smoothly. I also gotta admit that most of my classmates there pluck and strum really softly. Haha I guess it really pisses him off.. But he will be always ok after a while..

And yes! After guitar, went straight to Orchard to meet Shiya and Michelle. Met the rest at Heeren. Had a hard time deciding where to go for dinner again. Meanwhile, Shamimi brought us to her shopping haven. She bought a perfume and it isn't cheap.. Haha.. So wanna make a guess what we decided for dinner? Burger King! =X

Ya after that went to borders to browse some books. The whole group of us were looking at this book. Erm can't remember the title. This really thick love and relationship book base on your horoscope? Michelle and I even wanted to share money to buy it because it was only $11.95. But glad we made the right decision not to. Later, just went back to the Astrology section to look at somemore books.

Left around 11.30pm and it's back home. Ok nightssssssssssssssssss.. I am tired.

Was lazy to blog once again..

Yesterday - Went out with Shiya and Michelle to catch Miss Congeniality 2! Yeah it was nice. Real funny and touching at some parts.

After the show, came out and was surprised to see my primary school friend, Lydia. It was nice to meet her again. So just chatted for a short while.. Actually, I really miss those primary school days.. And.. oh well, nevermind I think I will go on and on..

Hmm.. yup then met Jacqueline at Orchard to pass her present. Happy birthday to Jacqueline! Yup, then followed her to the library as she wanted to borrow some books on architecture. I browsed through some books and there is really so much in constructing. I mean there are so many details behind it. Wow wow.. saw through a book on treehouses and I think it was pretty cool. Well well, I look up to architects man.. =X Hmm.. Dottie will soon be one.. haa..

Anyway, Jac told me so much about the company she was attached too. Kinda funny when she said how busy she could be and the next moment, she couldn't find anything better to do because she was so free. Apparently her boss has flew overseas or something and everyone seems to be shaking legs now. Haha..

Yup anyway, glad to know she love the card and present .. Oh yes, happy birthday to my grandmother too! Love her lots! =)

Went out with Pei Zi today. Yeah we caught a movie at Lido, House of Fury. Haha not a bad show. As what Michelle said, it was better than expectations.. which was true. One thing I couldn't stand was that guy sitting beside me. He just kept yak yak yaking away to his friend and making such unnecessary comments. He said things like "This show is so lame lor.. like can walk out anytime"... "How come they hit people then there's like no blood lor..." "Eh! That handphone they are using is mine!..." And blah blah blah.. and so on.. can you imagine the noise he created!?

At that time, I felt like smacking his face and asking him to get out. -_-" It's just a show.. Come on...

Anyway, results are out today! Haha.. everyone seems to have checked already except me. I was kinda missing in action for a few hours. Pei Zi came to my house for a few hours and after that was playing game till I got carried away and I completely forgot about the time. When I came back to msn, I realised so many people messaged me. Even my hp too. 4 Unread messages.. Haha.. oops.. sorry peeps.. Hmm guess I can check it in the later part of the morning..

Anyway, you guys like did so well for exams.. Haha so scared to know my results.. Oh well let's see..

Night.

Forgot to add on that after leaving the airport yesterday, was deciding whether to watch a movie or not. Couldn't join the rest for pool or something because I had only one hour to spare before I head to my grandmother's house. Then obviously there is no movie that is only 1 hour too so Michelle then suggested to go to Simei's Pet Safari.

It was quite a big place with all sorts of pet related stuffs. Saw fishes, turtles, pet foods.. Then saw cute dogs! Saw one of my favourites but not my most favourite one. Haha..

Also saw 2 dogs being groomed. You know they are just so obedient like just keeping still when their fur is being snipped off. Hmm.. good well-trained dogs.

Yup, and results shouldn't be out today. It should be out on the 6th of April @ 6am.

On yah, thanks Michelle for the little thing you did for us.

Dammit.. I can never watch a full episode of the apprentice. Today is no different because I only managed to watch the first half of the show. Don't ask me why because when I think about it, I get so agitated. WHY!!! Haha.. I better watch the whole show next week... Or else...

Hmm.. have not been updating the blog regularly. Let's see...

Went to Edwin's house on Friday to celebrate Silas's birthday. We cooked lunch and played monopoly and time just went poof. Before we know it, it was dinner time. Edwin's grandmother cooked a spread and it was nice. Grandmothers always seem to cook nice dishes. Then it was cake cutting. Happy Birthday to Silas in advance. =)

Today seems like a rush for me. Slept at about 4am the previous day because I was busy writing letters. The next morning, was rushing to rearrange photos and stuffs and sort out whose belong to who. Finally when everything was settled, headed to the airport, hungry.

I was already so late. Reached at 2.45pm but guess what the guys came even later. When we were having our lunch at Swensen's, they still have not arrived. What's new? :o

Yes said our goodbyes to Clarice. By the way, she has gone to perth already and will only be back the day before school reopens. Haha definitely going to miss her cause she's my activity partner!

Anyway if results supposed to be out on the 4th of April, it will be anytime soon. Ahhh.. don't feel like checking.. =X

Ok till the next post..